amazing love

feels much like a roller coaster, but thankfully, not with the full g-force effect - we have cleared the air, made clear the rules and engaged, fully, in accountability...

and, yes, again clearly and amazingly know that this is right....

our very own crisis

before, the crisises that we heard about were all attributable to the system, the caregivers who did not really care....

now, we have our very own crisis - fully attributable to no one but our child in the new family unit...

without getting into it (very difficult to write here and maintain confidentiality), we have to now deal with lying....

torn

at this point, i alternate between periods of complete and utter contentment with periods of unmitigated fear and depression, knowing things are moving forward....

the feelings in the former are understandable and expected....

the feelings in the latter are not....

perhaps they are brought forward by the reality of dealing with a system that, for the most part, doesn't appear to genuinely and passionately care....

today, i had to deal with the educational system....

*sigh*

right activity

finding the right activities is a challenge....

now, we are looking at what would be the right gymnastics activity...

of course, all are a ride away...